Is it normal to be as excited yet nervous I am about moving?
On one hand I'm like, "Yeah, cool! I'm an adult! I'm living on my own now! No curfew, no one tells me what to do, I'm gonna work, and stay out, and focus on me!"
And on another, I'm like, "What am I even doing... Who is gonna tell me what to do?!?"
Oh well, I just gotta take it day by day and hope for the best!🤗
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Japanese Anemone from mum's garden 🌿💕
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Rainy Sunday and clouds at Hampton Court, but a good time to hear the nib on the paper. A rhythmic and fast sound, familiar and full of memories ... Hydrangea
Domenica di pioggia e nuvole a Hampton Court, ma un tempo propizio per sentire il pennino sulla carta con il suo suono veloce e ritmato, familiare e pieno di ricordi... Ortensia
Pelecyphora graft that was attacked by a caterpillar did not survive its surgery and I just realized yesterday was probably dead and confirmed it now as i pulled the rotten scion from the stump. It is a sad moment for me in ways i cannot put into words but that won't stop me from trying.
I first tried to get this cactus in 2014 or so and all my graft attempts failed. Now this one i got again in 2016 and this time 1 of my grafts finally took and i almost killed it then it came back even better!
This year it was one of my pride and joys because of how hard i had worked trying to get this beautiful specimen up in size and healthy. All it took was a worm attack and a few weeks and every last pup and button or branch died. It happened before i could even notice it.
My heart breaks for this cactus but the situation and memories made by it will probably teach me more than i would have learned had it lived. So i have failed this species twice. I will be reluctant to try to grow it again. But this is a wake up call to start working and grafting my beautiful cacti because any moment of any day that cactus can be taken from me and i will wish i had propagated it when i had the chance. #wow#sadness#upset#awh#loss#lossforwords#horticulture#botany#cactus#cacti#cactusclub#cactuslover#succulentlove#garden#gardener#gardening#truth#love#passion#passionate#peyote#pelecyphora#trichocereus#entheogen#lessonlearned#lesson#learning#letGo#willpower
On a finally note for any who read this far it isn't even really the money it costs to buy the specimen again. Its just coming so far almost 2 years into its growth and having to start ALL over again. Like building a muscle car only to have someone drop a tree on it. Only the tree was a caterpillar